It's time.

Soon, I will leave this beautiful country of Brunei Darussalam and head off to the strange new land of the United Kingdom, where I shall reside for the following 4 years.

The things I will miss most, are the things I love and cherish the most.

:(

It's been a while..

It's been almost 3 months since I last blogged.. Ah, the days, how fast they've gone. What have I been up to? Let's recap: 1) Exams, 2) Melbourne Trip, 3) Farewells

Yes, yes, 1) is a pain the arse, but a "necessary" evil if you must. I'm mostly worried about my further maths, and reasonably comfortable with the rest of them, bar psychology. I just fucked up that paper so bad. Sigh. Ah well, whatever the case, I'll presume I can get enough points off the mark scheme for a B.

As for the Melbourne trip, it was very extrinsically pleasing, but not very intrinsically satisfying. I sort of regret going to Melbourne. Really, after hearing what happened at second prom, I should have skipped Melbourne in favour of DRINKING! YES! Drinking. A good ol' past time of people. :>

Finally, farewells.. A lot of people come and go, sometimes it's easier to say goodbye than hello, but not all the time. Some people I know and cherish quite well are leaving for their universities in Australia, or USA, or whatever country they're going to. Quite upsetting actually since most of the people I've said my goodbyes to, I'm quite close with. Tomorrow, JA is leaving. A few days ago, JarJar, and before that, Steven Tan, and before that, Jason Lew. Sad, it is, but forgotten, they shall not be.

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately..

About my past, my present and my future. I've always wondered whether anything was worth doing for. Whether I'm actually making a difference. And in the end, I come to the cold truth that no one really gives a shit. How many times I've done things for people only to be depreciated in the future for it. I've managed to hold back, and say "well, they're people.. they use you, they abuse you and then they dispose of you". Sad to say, despite knowing these, I still help people. Maybe one day my efforts will not be in vain.

On the slightly-less-depressing side of things, there have been some Korean songs that I've been listening to that I gotta say I think are pretty great:

U-KISS - I Like You


f(x) - NU ABO


You know there's an old saying or something that goes along the line of "it's better to try and be disdained than not try and have regret".. As a person, I can honestly say that is a load of crap. Clearly whoever said that did not consider the implications on the sociological construct, the implications and the adverse consequences beneath it. I've always been a fan of the 'tried, tested and proven' method.. Never a 'let's hope and if it works, YAY, if it doesn't work, FML' method because it just doesn't work. At least, not for me. I may have given up on the whole of humanity, but I've not given up on individuals. I've actually been having a good chat with some of my friends, and one of my old friends, Steven.

I need to have another long philosophical conservation with my good ol' nerd friends. It's been such a long time since I've had an intellectual conversation that honestly stimulated my way of thinking. (sup yongbo, nat, steven I'm talking to you guys) Although I'm pretty sure this blog is dead, there may be occasional updates.. Prom is in 6 days.. Should I be happy about it? I haven't asked anyone out. Don't know if I should.. I did plan on asking a few people, but meh. None of the people I really wanted to ask are going. I'll ask whoever I can I guess. For the sake of it. It's my last year, who gives a shit what happens after. I've messed up a few of my relationships with former friends, what's one more messed up relationship going to add to?

The equation of the common "heart"

So I was bored today, despite me supposed to be studying, I always wondered if the "heart shape" had an equation.. Guess what? After 5 seconds of googling, and more seconds spent fiddling with available graph drawing software I have, I created myself a heart :*)

This is the link I'm talking about. There are plenty.. The two that interest me most are the standard x-y and polar equation. :*)



and

ANGER.

I have a lot of anger issues, I realise, but what I'm more appalled by is the amount of sheer ignorance that goes on these days about mental illness. When someone feels down, the first thing people say is "grow a pair" instead of asking if said person is alright. Clinical depression is real, you fucking pricks. Don't believe me? Go read studies on it; it's biological in nature and is maintained by the environment and individual. Some people are lucky - their disorders are not that bad; for instance I would not classify dyslexia as a serious mental disorder.

However, things like depression, schizophrenia are not things to give a brief moment of thought and then promptly ignore. What makes things worse is the way people treat truly depression people - there are lot of suicide cases in the world as a result of this.

I guess ignorance truly is bliss, eh?

Tonsils

...are a useless part of the human anatomy! I need to get mine removed.

This tonsillitis thing is extremely irritating, it's not even funny. I'll probably remove it during the holidays.

LOL EXAMS

..are done

and now the mass amount of tests await

also i'm quite surprised at my predicted grades I'll be using for UCAS. didn't think any teachers thought highly of me :/

New skin

No, it has nothing to do with the New Year or anything. I just wanted a skin where I could type LOTS of text and not make it seem like gigantic walls of text as well as using a skin where I could post full-sized YouTube vids up instead of having to shrink them myself[/sigh].

Anyway, other reason is that I need to post this:

11/1/10 - Mechanics 2 @ 17:00
13/1/10 - Physics 1 @ 17:00
15/1/10 - C4 Maths @ 17:00
15/1/10 - Numerical Methods @ 21:00
20/1/10 - Further Pure 1 @ 19:00
20/1/10 - C3 Maths @ 21:00

How fun. Yes, I am resitting physics 1 cause I'm a noob and was 1 mark off an A. sigh. C3/4 resits for A* cause I'm a nerd etc.

Well w/e back to M2 for me. FML.