Sunday, May 9, 2010

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately..

About my past, my present and my future. I've always wondered whether anything was worth doing for. Whether I'm actually making a difference. And in the end, I come to the cold truth that no one really gives a shit. How many times I've done things for people only to be depreciated in the future for it. I've managed to hold back, and say "well, they're people.. they use you, they abuse you and then they dispose of you". Sad to say, despite knowing these, I still help people. Maybe one day my efforts will not be in vain.

On the slightly-less-depressing side of things, there have been some Korean songs that I've been listening to that I gotta say I think are pretty great:

U-KISS - I Like You



f(x) - NU ABO



You know there's an old saying or something that goes along the line of "it's better to try and be disdained than not try and have regret".. As a person, I can honestly say that is a load of crap. Clearly whoever said that did not consider the implications on the sociological construct, the implications and the adverse consequences beneath it. I've always been a fan of the 'tried, tested and proven' method.. Never a 'let's hope and if it works, YAY, if it doesn't work, FML' method because it just doesn't work. At least, not for me. I may have given up on the whole of humanity, but I've not given up on individuals. I've actually been having a good chat with some of my friends, and one of my old friends, Steven.

I need to have another long philosophical conservation with my good ol' nerd friends. It's been such a long time since I've had an intellectual conversation that honestly stimulated my way of thinking. (sup yongbo, nat, steven I'm talking to you guys) Although I'm pretty sure this blog is dead, there may be occasional updates.. Prom is in 6 days.. Should I be happy about it? I haven't asked anyone out. Don't know if I should.. I did plan on asking a few people, but meh. None of the people I really wanted to ask are going. I'll ask whoever I can I guess. For the sake of it. It's my last year, who gives a shit what happens after. I've messed up a few of my relationships with former friends, what's one more messed up relationship going to add to?